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 i had the best dad in the world…

how i really wish he’s still with me…miss him so much…everytime i had flashbacks of my childhood speciallly those days with my dad wla n qng ibang gnagwa kundi umiyak…olmost 9 years when he passed away, pro bkit ganun? pkiramdam q d prin aq nkkrecover…may mga times na im olweiz wishing sna and2 x, sna ksma q x… SANA NAKITA NYA QNG ANUNG NARATING Q…

18years ago naalala q i asked him… “daddy anu daw gus2 q maging paglaki q sbi ni teacher kc kelangan s yearbook nmen…” he said,” sabihin mo NURSE, mgiging nurse k”… registered nurse n q! alam kya nya n nrating q ung gus2 nyang marating q? nkikta nya kya aq everytime im on my duty s hospital? what if and2 p x? susunduin nya kya aq everytime i’ll be home late galing s hospi? mkikta q kyang me dala xng payong at jacket habang inaantay aqng lumabas? just like what he used to do when he’s still alive… he’s the one who never failed me… HE’S THE FIRST MAN I LOVED MORE THAN MYSELF… miss my dad so much…

naalala q b4 nung nsa service p x, madalas naasyn x s malau. Few days before x umalis he would ask me “anung gus2 mong pasalubong?”, then suddenly i will start crying kso ayokong mkita nya… alam qng gngwa nya un pra idivert ung attention q… para maexcite aq s paguwi nya… usually paguuwi n x he would surprise me… pagdumadating xng 2log n q he would sing taz kiss nya q s ulo… my dad used to hug me so tight… taz minsan d q makahinga s higpit everytime gngwa nya un naiiwan ung amoy nya s ilong q… ung tipong khit nkapikit aq malalaman qng daddy q un…

strict x, disciplinarian pro s lugar… before 6pm dapat nsa bhay n q… we used to pray ng sabay2x and before praying dapat nkapagshower n kmi… lahat ng kilos q me oras, ayaw nya ng mbgal ayaw nya ng mahina… khit nga pencil q before pnapakialaman nya heheheh… maxado xng supportive s skul… halos lahat ng activities sinalihan q n, katwiran nya “gus2 qng maranasan nyo ung mga bagy n d q naranasan”… because of him im strong, i have my own identity… he’s the one who build my personality ksma ung mom q… he trained me, and on with him i found the so called UNCONDITIONAL LOVE…

i want o be alone for a while

akala q before i wasn’t that affected, pro y is it habang 2matagl d q maintindihan…i hate having this kind of feeling… it wasn’t me hu stated the fire but then bakit kelangang bliktarin aq… haaaaaaaaaay!!! cguro it just so happened lng tlga n d aq snay s ganitong sitwaxon,,, ang gawan ng sariling issue….

im happy and contented, kya b kelangang guluhin p aq? its really hard to please somebody that’s why i never attempetd to do so… if u hate me, then why don’t you just leave me or get lost rather… qng snay kang may issue sau dhil gus2 m maging center of attraction o kya nman mging talk of the town… well im sorry malaki ang pinagkaiba natin… qng gus2 mong laging pinaguusapan k, qng gus2 mong lagi kang bida, wag m qng idadamay… hindi open book ang buhay q n pwedeng pagusapan ng kahit sino… qng anu mang meron aq ngaun it’s none of your business… auko s lahat ung pinapakialaman aq, lalong lalo n ung mga taong mahal q…

im often silent but not empty…

naughty but not silly…

calm but not coward…

gnawa q lng ung s plagay qng tama, and i don’t need anybody’s approval even your opinion rather, qng wla kang magandang ssbhin tumahimik k nlng… mabait aq qng s mabait, wag m lng aqng sasagarin!!! i often do crazy and stupid things but i know my limitations… alam q qng san aq lulugar. sna nman alam m rin qng san m ilalagay ung sarili m… i hate this feeling so much!!!!!!!!!!

work! work!

after few months of hunting for a job…i got it… i was hired as a property specialist… yehey!!! happy kc d n q PT(Professional Tambay) haha although d x ganun klapit s course and profession q somehow its related, kso nga lang aun!!! CULTURE SHOCK ever hehehehe… now, im still on the adjustment stage. hopfully maovercome q x. so far ok nman nkkpagadjust n q… i was looking for a job which will help me grow personally an professionally… luckly i got one… my God s araw-araw n lakad q dami qng nkikilala… different persons with different personalities. khit nung training plang mga kalog ksma q, c KUA MARLON n kmukha ni julius babao, c SIR KENNETH n akalo mo sto.ninong sumanib s budah,c MISS ARLENE n umaapaw ang sense of humor! c KUA JAY n kmukha daw ni gerald,(sabi nya! hahaha)  c SIR REGGIE n mukhang bumbay and dami p hehe… lucky to know them kc they helped me n mkpagadjust… haaaaaaay! im hoping sna maachieve q goal q… well i strongly believe God is always with me… minsan gus2 q n giv up s sobrang pagod, init… masakit s ulo, pag-uwi q msakt ktawan q lahat…. stressed out aq pagdating q ng bhay… 

pero khit ganun its not an obstacle for me, kc im doing this for my family…

kya q 2!!!!!!

GO ABBHEY!!!!!!!!!!!! heheheheh

♥ with my hubby ♥

Before i thought long distance relationships wont work…maybe for others but not for me…hehehehe d q inakalang aabot s ganito kc parang npakaimpocble ng i2loy….

April 31,2009… one of the most unforgettable dates of my life… it was the day when me and my hubbhy met… hahahaha! kktawa n ewan… d q maexplain ang feeling ecxited n knkbhan… cno b nmang hindi after 3 long years ngaun lng kmi ngkita personally…hahaha stupid! similar with describing a rainbow to a blind man (ano daw?) simple yet complicated…

hinatid aq ng mom q s airport, after i checked in lumabas muna aq for a while pra magkausap kmi…as we go along with the conversation i discovered n teary eye n mama q huhuhuhuh gus2 q nring umiyak kso mhirap n bka bahain kmi dun hehehehe… few minutes later pinapasok n nya aq ksi boarding n an plane so i hav to get in the port… pag-alis ng plane huhuhuh naiiyak n q sa loob kc i was thinking of my mom and my two other siblings maiiwan q cla. isa s mga greatest fear q rin, is d q lam qng anung nagaantay skin s manila, npkalaking adjustment.. new faces, new environment!!! huh!!!

after an hour lumalapit n ung plane s destination nmen… my God i forgot!!!! me nagaantay pla sken hehehehe…ung bf q nsa airport n kya??? hehehehe panu npkalabu nyang kausap d q alam qng susunduin b nya aq o ano!!! few minutes p nagland n plane so i opened my phone to check for some message hehehehe nagtx nah, sbi nya “dumating n plane nyo”, he was trying to call me up pro dnidecline q! hahahaha (pagiicpan p b qng ccputin???) nsa labas n daw x nagaantay hehehehe… palabas ng port nyeh! knakbahn aq… hehehehe aun nga! andun nkatayo s labas… hehehehe d muna aq lumapit kc inaantay q x mauna kaso aun!!! dinedma an lolah so i approached him… wheeeeeeeeeeeh!!! he hugged me so thight taz kis s ulo… hehehehe “musta ang byahe?” duh! bkit byahe an kinamusta, hndi aq??? hehehehe… after nun we took a taxi pra mkapunta s dorm. he was so sweet khit 1st tym nmen meet. he was wishing n sna d n daw matapos hehehehe… he stayed for few days p d2 s manila pra mas matagal kming magksma although d kmi s iisang bhay stay… s sobrang dami qng inaackaso d q napancin n nsa manila din pla x, so d ganun ktgal bonding nmen… i just realyzed wat i’ve lost ng umuwi x ng palawan, the day before our anniversary… nung umaga sbi q skanya maghahatid aq kso ayaw nya kc malungkot daw, but last minute nagtx x “gus2 kita mayakap b4 aq alis… so tried n humabol s airport huhuhuhuh… it was raining that day taz grabe n an baha huhuhuhuh… umuwi p aq ng dorm kc parang malabo nring m2loi cla coz of the bad weather kso aun nagtx, paalis n raw cla so humabol aq… i was insisting n mkhabol kso ayaw n nya kc papasok n daw cla agad bka d n aq makahabol huhuhuhuhuh… disaster an nangyari dat day i rode a bus, puj and taxi but unfortunately d q nahabol ;(… qng kelan dumating ung taxi ska nman cla umakyat n ng plane… huhuhuhuhuh… wla n aqng magawa but to wait for the plane to bord huhuhuhuhuh sad!!!!! ska q narealyz dmi qng pinalampas… u should seize every moment kc ders a pocblity that nxt tym and second chances wud never cum… huhuhuhuhuhuh….dami qng regrets, pakiramdam q dami qng pinalampas n pagkktaon n dapat cnulit q… huhuhuhuh

enough for those sad moments…. hehehehehehe kc he surprised me again!!! nyah!!! i thought he was only joking n bblik x s monthsry nmen kya bnlewala q… hehehehehehe kkgulat nlng wen he txted me “wait m q s edsa station bi” nyeh????? and2 nga!!!! hahahahaha… surprise nya aq s monthsary nmen… humabol x… after q mrivc ung message pumunta aq agad s edsa station and tenen!!!!! he approached me… ska q nsabi s srili q n dis tym il be sweeter!!!!!!! hahahaha korny!!!!!!

im moving on from a lately painful experience….. hahai… this year sna ung pnkamsyang taon q…. kso aun!!!! napurnada ang bkasyon!!!! huhuhu ang mskit p bukod skin alam qng me ibang nssktan!!!! huhuhu…. 3 yrs n kmi but den d p kmi nagksma even once…. wats gud with him he can wait… masakit lng ulit kc mukhang mxdo xng apektado s nangyari…. i can feel dat he’s hurt… huhuhu…. everyday explain q skania n d d2 mttpos lahat and “good things come to those who wait, d q xng phhntayin ng gn2 ktgal qng s wla mpupunta lahat”… khit gnun ung nangyari happy nrin aq kc  i felt how much i mean to him… wla pring ngbgo oldo medyo me tampo p x… sbi nga nya “minsan ngttampo aq sau pero… hay! cguro mas matimbang ung luv q kya gn2… ikaw lng nkgwa nyan skin…” ;(  wawa nman other half q!!!!

for every event there is always a purpose… alam q 1 day we’ll find out qng anong reason bat d n2loy ngaun… God has His plans and i leave everything 2 Him…

finish n ang pilgrimage…

Godbless us…

madalas me mga bagay n d m inaasahan…ang mskit p madalas me nssktan, me nccra… ;( bkit kc ngkaganun??? qng alam q lng n un ung mgging reason sna d q nlng gnwa nung umpisa pah… sna d q nlng cnubukan… hirap….

board exam nah!!!

aduy…

panic stage n an anxiety q!!!!

Lord tabang!!!

hahai….gudluck skin…pray lng wag magdiarrhea during exam…

jelax!

go! go! go!

kya q 2!!!

i will be a NURSE!!! Ist take ha!

jejeje…..

pray for me….

tnx!

ok n q…..

whehehehehe….

wiz keber s mga walang mgawa….

bhala kau mpagod…

as if….

i dont care….

basta….

s ngaun mas alam q n how much he loves me….

jajajaja…. duh!

aduy!!!!!

THANK GOD…..